makes ya go hmmm...

This weekend was kind of weird, it should have been relaxing, but I kept getting all of these nervous feeling. About work, and conflicts. About school, graduation, and homework, or the lack there of. About Christmas and not being able to get home, every time I hear the song "I'll be home for Christmas," I start freaking out, it is no longer part of my Christmas play list.

I've also been getting really nervous about my HUGE compressive test. Should I take it while I'm home for Christmas, if I take it while I am home what books should I take home. When I get the questions early should I read them, my teacher told me to read them, but I feel like that's cheating. What if I fail.

And I've been freaking out about where I am going to work next year, part of me is so excited to do the job search again. The other part of silently flipping out, WHAT IF I DON'T GET A JOB. I know I do very well at what I do but, what if the new place I work at does not fit me at all, what if I never make new friends.

I know I'm over reacting but, this weekend all I could think about was "what if," I'm gonna what if my self into a panic attack full of hives and puking.

To take my mind off of the freak out, I fiddled with these, they are kind of fun.